I need to say this first before I say anything else: I am not writing this to try to get friendships back, if you were my true friends then I wouldn't have been dropped like a dirty piece of trash..I just want to say what's on my mind, and maybe let you all know a whole other side of the story. And you know what? This side is probably more true than the other cause I've got nothing to lose, I've already lost you all, so why would I lie? and hey, that's what journals are for, right?
Ok, here goes. Everyone else has written about "the drama of 2008", and I really was going to stay out of it..why? because it was none of my business. But, I noticed that people had deleted me from their myspace. hmm.. maybe by accident? I honest to God, had no idea what I could have possibly done to upset these people.. So, what would a normal rational thinking human do? Why, message of course! I did, and found out that me and my husband who has NEVER spoken an ill word about these people (nor have I) have been deleted because we are "associated" with the person they were upset with. Now, I'm a college graduate with a pretty damn good grade point average, and I still, for the life of me, can't understand how this rationalization makes any sense. Just because I am her sister, does not mean we think the same. And let me mention this first because it is very important: I do NOT always take her side because she is my sister. I will be the first to say, "Damn, Kristen you are a bitch!"
Ok, let's start from the beginning. This is what I know: Michele wanted to go get Tanya for Kristen's birthday party. As soon as I found out about it, I was ecstatic and very grateful. And guess what, so was Kristen! If you don't believe me, call our boss and she will show you the video of it, k? She was so happy and telling everyone at work what Michele was going to do, and they were happy too. Then, I watched and read the texts between Kristen, Tanya, and Michele. Michele and Tanya were planning on surprising Kristen on when they were coming. The only reason why Kristen got upset was because she needed to get the days off, and how could she if she didn't know what days to ask for? I would be a little upset too. I know this because I was there the whole time and talked to her about it. Then came the constant texting and calling from Michele to Tanya. Tanya is a mother of a three year old, and she doesn't have time to keep up with the constant texting and calling. She is a nice person who doesn't like confrontation, so she asked Kristen to tell Michele to oh, I don't know, leave her alone for a bit? Pretty much, if Michele wanted to know something from Kristen, could you please ask her yourself?..I gotta take care of my three year old...something like that.. If you want to do something out of the kindness out of your heart, then by God you shouldn't demand a thank you. You should do it because you enjoy making that person happy. Not everyone expresses thanks the same way. I know my sister like the back of my hand, and she was VERY thankful. If I was being bullied into saying thanks, I would be like "Fuck you, I don't need it." That's why we went to get Tanya ourselves, and we had a blast by the way.
Try to think of how Tanya feels..You feel bad for someone having to drive all the way over to Texas to come get you, and then bring you back. Then someone says they will get you (and you feel like a bother) but then says that they won't come until someone says a thank you?! I would be a little upset and confused as well. I am taking up for Tanya here in saying that she didn't do anything wrong! She was the one who was put in the middle. Who put her there? Michele. Yes, you heard correctly..Miss Saint.. She was the one constantly telling her to tell Kristen this and tell Kristen that.
Now let's discuss the fight between Kristen and Michele. And this really should be just between them, but hell it's all out in the open and she's told everyone anyway, so why not discuss it now? Ok, let me say this first. I LOVE Michele as a friend. She would absolutely give you the damn shirt off her back. She has done so much for me and my sister over the years, and we really are thankful. But, I've always felt a little confused and sometimes freaked out by Michele's obsessive behavior towards my sister. Don't say it's not there, because, DAMN, everyone notices it. I'm telling you, only me, Tanya and my mom know how Michele treats us because we are the closest to Kristen. I can't really explain what she does, but she does it well. She tries to get me alone and ask about Kristen and stuff, and sometimes honestly I feel that she is only friends with me to get in good graces with my sister. It's freaky and damn I can't explain it very well. Shit.
Anyway, Tanya notices like I do that she was deleted off of LJ and myspace. She's the one who told me, so I checked mine then. Yep, both deleted. And we didn't do anything wrong! What did we do?! And I just checked Donald's for shits and giggles, and hey, whatd'ya know? He's deleted too! Honestly, he just laughed...he doesn't do drama and I've never been involved in any of it in the past, but I was brought up so here I am.
Anyway..Adam hears about all of this before we got deleted and decided to try and tell the side of the story that probably wasn't told. Yes, he was a little abrupt, by that's Adam and you all should know how he is. He was just stating the facts as he knew them. So, now everyone thinks that he started it, but in reality it was a whole lot of shit just blowing way out of proportion.
So, pretty much Summer and Holli are ceasing friendship with us because we are "associated" with Kristen and Adam. Don't you all think that that's not a very nice thing to do? If that was me, I'd be like, "hey you're sister's being a bitch, but you're cool! how's things lately?" I mean, this is just ridiculous people!
Actually, the main reason why I am writing this is because I am incredibly hurt by Holli. Yes, I said it. So is Tanya. I haven't really talked to anyone over the past year, not just you and Summer. I've been so busy with school and working almost 40 hours a week while going to school,and moving, and getting ready to graduate, graduating..then studying for the GRE, applying to grad school,and now working almost 50 hours a week! I was there when you were moving and we hugged and I almost cried because I knew I wouldn't see you for a long time. We were Harry Potter buddies! I hated the fact that you had to move. And I didn't know you were cutting ties when you moved, that's new to me.
I had no idea people could just throw away a friendship so easily, like it meant nothing to them. All I can say is that, if I were to do that to someone, they better had done something really fucking bad to cease friendship completely. I guess everyone's not like me.
Again, I didn't say all this to make excuses or anything. My name was mentioned in someone's journal, and I feel I have the right to explain what I saw and how I feel. So take it as the truth, because it took alot for me to have to get on this damn thing and type for this long, and I wouldn't waste my time typing lies because I have better things to do, like play Sims2.
By the way, Kristen hasn't said anything to anyone since they moved because no one talked to her. She's been made out to be the one starting stuff as well, but she was content to vent to her friends and not drag anyone else into it. As has been stated, Michele made the call to Summer, and Summer told Holli about it so, if were going to point fingers for dragging people into things, let's point them correctly. Adam made a valid assumption about how things transpired so he made his original entry visible to those who were involved.